Pilgrim:
Camino de Santiago
Saying YES to the Camino 1:1
Last
October when first the talk of hiking the Camino de Santiago surfaced, it was
simply a dream and not anywhere close to reality.
Years
ago I was the Director of the Doctor of Ministry Program for the University of
Creation Spirituality working alongside with renowned
author/theologian/lecturer: Matthew Fox.
When the leadership changed at the University so did the name and it
became Wisdom University. One of the
innovations that I had made was to begin gathering students from many places
around the country and then around the world.
We would create courses that would best be taught at sacred sites where
the experience of being there was more important than anything one could read
in a book or take notes at a lecture.
This is how I began making these Sacred Pilgrimages around our country
and then in faraway lands.
A
significant part of the “on the road” courses were held at Chartres Cathedral
in France. Students would gather for a
week long seminar and we would live at Saint Ives, the Monastery attached to
the Cathedral. It was a powerful time of
learning and experiencing all things of Spirit.
One day I noticed people standing at the doors of the Cathedral holding
scalloped seashells in their hands in a begging gesture. I asked others, “What is with the folks and
the sea shells?” That was the first time
I had heard these words: “Compostello,”
“Camino”, “Santiago”…and to be honest, I didn’t know what they were talking
about. This began my searching to
understand what this Pilgrimage was all about and what were the desired
destinations.
A
close friend and spiritual companion called and asked me if I had ever heard of
the Camino de Santiago? My response was,
“Yes, I’ll go!” Teresa said, “But I
didn’t ask you yet.” I said, “ But I
will go.” So that was the
beginning. I had no idea that something
extraordinary was beginning. I simply
knew that I was being invited to GO! I
have heard it said and now I understand the meaning in these words: “The Pilgrimage begins when you say YES to
the Camino!” Since last October I have
been making preparations that I have been unaware of and deeply aware of. My life has changed on every level of my
being.
My
Mother died unexpectedly on August 10th, 2014 and I was in a time of
deep mourning and grief. I was her
caregiver and she lived with me. In
addition to having a beautiful relationship as mother and daughter, we were
fortunate to be the best of friends and we lived our lives very closely. Often we travelled together on great
adventures. The last trip I shared with
my mom was the Fall of 2013 when I took her on a Riverboat Cruise from New York
through inner waterways all the way north of Quebec. I will never forget that trip. It was very important to me that she have
this “one more opportunity” to do what she loved. I had Mom, her wheel chair, oxygen, luggage
and my luggage. It was quite a feat and
it was wonderfully worth every minute.
At 90 years of age, she still had the wonderment of a child’s eyes every
time we went through one of the Locks.
She loved to flirt and enjoyed sharing meals with other passengers. She brought joy wherever she went. Her smile was radiant and everyone loved her.
Mom
certainly had a mind of her own. For her
90th birthday she decided to celebrate with some friends in
Steubenville where I was pastoring a church.
Much to the chagrin of the family who wanted her to come back to the
Cleveland area to celebrate her 90th. Her response was, “ I will be 90 all year. You can come to visit me throughout the year
and it will be a year of celebration.”
So
it was in the midst of all of these feelings that the invitation to walk the
Camino emerged.
I
will turn 70 years this Fall. I feel
that it is time for me to do something different with my life. When Mom died at nearly 91 years of age, I
realized that I would be fortunate to have 20 more years to accomplish whatever
I would accomplish in this life time.
The older I get, the faster time flies.
I know that I need to get busy doing what my entire life has prepared me
to do. There are a number of books in my
head that need to be written and I have begun a couple of them. Since my mother’s death I have made the
decision to cut back on some of my work related time investments and begin to
use the time to accomplish in these 20 years what I feel is my soul’s purpose
in being here.
What
I have been describing here is the Pilgrimage of my life. I see the Camino as another important part of
my Life’s Pilgrimage. I don’t know
why. I don’t know what for. I don’t have any expectations or investment
in outcome. I simply have begun to
prepare and now all of the questions and answers are manifesting in ways that I
never expected.